Posts Tagged ‘fitspo’

#UMWFG: What’s your excuse…?

In Happiness, Somewhat disjointed rant..., Uncategorized on October 23, 2013 at 3:43 am

There have been lots of media outlets flooded with this message: WHAT’S YOUR EXCUSE? The fitspo category is flooded with this message. But, it’s not just fitspo. Politics, religion, education, and fashion have increasingly started shouting this question.

Ironically, I’m a ruminator so I often ask myself this question. It has become, frankly, overwhelming. And, I’ve been in a bit of a funk about the whole thing lately. Since I’ve decided to USE MY WORDS FOR GOOD this month, I figured there had to be a way to get out of this funk with words.

I decided to reframe the question. I’m asking myself the same question, but within a completely different context.

Most of the people and entities who ask this question are exemplifying some passionate pursuit: youth, faith, clothing, cooking, jewelry, career, ethics, fitness. Each pursues that which makes him/her/it happy

There it is. The question re-framed.


I watch a lot of public television; Martha Stewart has a cooking show that comes on Saturday mornings. The look of pure bliss that Martha sports while whipping up a coffee cake exemplifies  the feeling that I have when I hit publish on a blog post is the emotion John Legend wears when he is at the piano is the air Stella McCartney floats on when her latest collection is on the runway.

But, back to Martha. Ms. Stewart has no excuse to AVOID making that (admittedly scrumptious looking) coffee cake because making the cake makes her happy. She enjoys making the cake. She likes hosting people who will inevitably eat the cake. She enjoys sharing her recipes with me on Saturday mornings. Does John Legend have an excuse for failing to make a coffee cake on my television on Saturday morning? Yes. He does: playing the piano and singing makes him happier than baking cakes.  There is no reason for him to beat up on himself because he doesn’t bake coffee cakes on my TV screen. But, nothing prevents him from enjoying a slice of that coffee cake if Martha invites him over for Saturday brunch.

So, that’s how I’m going to process WHAT’S YOUR EXCUSE. I will appreciate that other person’s show of passion, and I will remind myself to continue to pursue my own passions at my own pace at my own time. I provide no excuses for being who I am at this moment.

I’ll be John Legend. You be Martha Stewart. I’ll play piano for you, and then we’ll eat cake. We’ll both be happy.


#Fitspo Rant

In and other uncomfortable topics, First World Problems, Somewhat disjointed rant... on August 12, 2013 at 3:53 am


It’s all over Instagram and Twitter. It’s short for fitspiration, which in turn is short for fitness inspiration. It’s all about being healthy and physically fit.

Or, so I thought.

I’m nearly 5’10” and I weigh 173 pounds today. My weight hovers between 170 and 180 pounds. I’m not a small woman.  Through my mid-twenties, I was very thin. Not because I exercised, merely a result of a high-stress and hyper personality. Then, I got up to 200 pounds when I turned 25 and stayed there for a year or so. A combination of a very controlled diet, plenty of cardio exercise, a high stress working environment, and a hyper profession that didn’t allow any time for random snacking saw me drop down to 120 pounds by the time I was 27.

Thaaaaat’s not healthy. Just ain’t. May sound nice. You may think it’s nice. But, it wasn’t. My skin was dull, my hair was falling out….you get the picture. But, since the time I lost all that weight, I have been concerned about my weight and size in a way that I never was before. During this summer, I made the decision to make healthier eating choices and to pursue a more active lifestyle.

Buuuuuuuut, it’s soooooooo hard (in a first world problems kind of way). I need #fitspo! I signed up for Instagram where #fitspo and #fitspiration abound! Pictures of lovely bodies. Pictures of healthy meals with abbreviated recipes in the comments. Videos and pictures of various workout moves. I even watch the occasional radical weight loss reality show!

But, I can’t. I literally just cannot deal. Is #fitspo motivation or judgment? #Fitspo is the latest example of something promising starting to go wrong.

1. What the bloody blazes is a cheat meal? I look at some of these pictures of cheat meals and think……wait, that’s my HEALTHY meal! Since when is a SMOOTHIE a cheat meal? Since when is salsa a cheat meal? Salsa is made of vegetables and good feelings and unicorn tears.  I seriously ate salsa with cut up cucumbers (instead of pita chips) last night and thought, this is a good cheat snack. I realized last night that I have a problem.

2. Let me tell you something….that thigh gap I had when I was 12? It ain’t coming back. It’s gone. My thighs are roommates. Even when I weighed 120 pounds, I HAD NO THIGH GAP. Shut up about the thigh gap. Not everyone is built to have a thigh gap. Furthermore, no one is pushing pics of dudes with thigh gaps, and men have more of a reason to have a thigh gap.

3. I ENJOY the taste of wine. I ENJOY the bright spiciness of beef salad. I ENJOY lemon mint water. I ENJOY chocolate soy smoothies. I ENJOY bonding with friends over a delicious, healthy meal. I do NOT enjoy panicking about what I am going to eat every time some one invites me out to eat.

4. Fit looks different on every body. How did I come to the conclusion that I wasn’t fit? Walking up multiple flights of stairs was difficult. Moving around in the increasing heat of summer was more troublesome than it was last year. My clothes were “shrinking.” I was tired all of the time.

I am clearly in a fitspo funk. Sigh.